a few of the people in my world.

basitan/sabi-the love of my life, my ex boyfriend. my beautiful man, who went away to school (cornell college, mount vernon, ia) and looked around and felt inside and realized he had been lying to himself and me for quite sometime. my first love, and, i have a sinking suspicion, my last. bastian is imbued with greatness, he just needs to figure out how to tap it and live life and be happy all at once. don't we all? the current subject of the majority of my musings, my beloved left me for good in early january and i have been sunken ever since.

steph-my best friend since kindergarten. steph and i are incredibly different, but we love each other as fiercely as sisters, and no matter how far away we are or for how long we can always find our way back into the familiar wonder that is our friendship. we are also both creative (her visual arts, me writing) and both love ani difranco. i worry about steph a lot, but i recognize that she is an incredible, sensitive being, but also very strong, and that she will make it through. although she is six months younger than me, steph decided to graduate early and currently attends knox college in galesburg, il.

majid-the storyteller. many people think majid is a compulsive liar, but he is actually just a young man with a completely extraordinary life and a great affinity for storytelling and exaggeration. i love talking to majid about a million different things, and he and i have a lot in common. he does have a temper, and also knows exactly how to wound someone so that it hurts. but majid is often one of the first people to try to comfort me when i'm down, and he knows me very, very well. an incredibly talented artist, majid is, like me, a senior at ka.

cassie-my mysterious, beautiful, ethereal, kind friend. cassie is just one of the truly beautiful people in the world. sadly, we have never been able to be as close as i hoped, perhaps because of our very different schedules.

anthony-my drama queen "brother". anthony and i decided we were sibling of the soul a few years ago, and this has become even more accurate as we are always fighting. anthony is purely brilliant, but he tends to shy from "the system" in favor of doing his own thing, sometimes, it seems, just to be contrary. formerly sabi's best friend, anthony has become removed since some of our friends went off to college (he dropped out of highschool) and he continues to live in the suburbs. despite our constant argument and the fact that i frequently want to strangle anthony, i love him inexplicably, even when he drives me crazy.

john- my first "ex boyfriend". john and i dated for a few months in eighth grade, a disaster which has seriously impaired our friendship in the years to come. over highschool, our closeness has waxed and waned, but john has had a large influence on my life and way of thinking. currently, our friendship is stressed by a strong difference in religion and beliefs (he's catholic, i'm unitarian universalist), and by not seeing each other very often. john is a first year at loyola university but continues to live in hyde park, as i do.

andi-sabi's best friend from cornell. andi and i began talking online, initially drawn together by our shared connection to bastian. we found that we had a lot in common and enjoyed each other's conversation a lot. when she moved back to the chicago area, we began hanging out a great deal, and we eventually realized we had something else in common - a crush on each other. we're now starting a new relationship, and though it may seem weird and teen soap opera-ish to some, to us, it just feels good.

sarah-my mentor. i worshipped sarah, who is a year older than me, throughout much of highschool, and was finally lucky enough to become her friend. we have a lot in common, and i deeply enjoy her company.

nathan-my north carolina friend. yes, i have more than one friend in nc, but oh, well. nathan and i met at camp at the mountain, a uu retreat in highlands, nc. although we don't talk so much lately, i always appreciate nathan's being there for me.

i have many, many more people in my life. this list is just an intro, and i will try to keep expanding. these are the people most likely to turn up named here, so there you go.